This zine was released on my 18th birthday.

The year leading up to it was heavy and emotionally overwhelming. Fires around the world, protests in Poland, and the Black Lives Matter movement in the U.S. created a constant background of tension and anger. Stepping into adulthood during that time felt confusing — becoming an adult when the world itself seemed unstable and uncertain didn’t feel promising at all.

The cover features a “fuck you” gesture, which directly reflects my state of mind back then. It was a response to the frustration, helplessness, and collective anger that surrounded me. Remote schooling only intensified those feelings. I changed classes during that period, which made it difficult to truly connect with new people and took a toll on my mental well-being.

Looking back now, I see this project as a turning point. This was the moment when my visual style started to grow, evolve, and become more recognizable. Most of the people featured in this zine were my friends and non-professional models from my hometown. What feels surreal today is that some of them are now working worldwide in the fashion industry — and I’m grateful I had the chance to meet and photograph them at the very beginning of their journeys.

Made in 100 copies.